Tragic Flaw Follow-Up

"Everyone wants to change the world; no one wants to change themselves."

I want to change the world. Perhaps I'll start with me...

My Tragic Flaw

This "essay" was written by the character of Ephraim Brown in the WB series Everwood. I came across it tonight, along with some great clips from Saved By The Bell, another favorite of mine back in the day. :) I wouldn't say that this is the tragic flaw stirring up the most trouble in my life right now but the memory makes be smile and brings a little relief to my (insert an adjective such as troubled or conflicted here :)) heart. It something to think about...

“The more things change, the more they stay the same.” I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw: my inability to change.

I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels better somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be waiting out there. Chances are it could be even worse.

So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little.

When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really, really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again.